I guess I really need a best friend. I’m really really sick of the feeling of always being second to someone. I know there are many people that always have my back, but nobody who i can always text or vent to or ask to hang out or just anything. There’s always some people during times where i can do most of this with, but nobody who i can know that i’m always first with. I mean i’ve had samir but we’re not even that close anymore. Maybe timmy or brandon or victoria or dora? i dont know, i feel like everyone has so many important friends and people in their lives, that its really hard for me to actually be really significant to them. I wish that I wasn’t so insecure about this shit because it makes me seem like a really weak person.